Saturday, March 1, 2008

Heartbeats and Heart Attacks

I have a very good excuse as to why I have not posted about Tuesday's u/s until now. Really I do. I've been sleeping. No lie - this %!#% progeste.rone (do you think I whine about pregeste.rone enough?!) still has be conking out pretty early each night, and I can't get a jolt from some nice strong, regular coffee! I vowed to post Thurs. night, but fell asleep even earlier because, believe it or not I am sick again! Just a slight fever and sore throat - just enough to make me feel pretty lousy, and wanting to sleep even more than usual, if that's even possible. I was able to go to work Fri. Thank you Tylenol. I rarely ever get sick two weeks in a row, so I don't know what's going on. I could have posted from work, since I do manage to stay awake during the day, but I wanted to scan the latest picture to go with the post... which I planned on doing every evening and wound up falling asleep before I get to the computer.

Tuesday's u/s went very well. Butters had grown and measured 6w2d. Based on my ER date, I would have been 6w4d on Tuesday, but Dr. M. said that a two day measurement difference didn't mean anything, because it depends on when implantation occurred. The most reassuring thing was the little heartbeat that both DH and I could see very clearly, beating away at 120bpm. I just stared at the screen in awe. You still can't see much in the picture.

I was told to stop the estrad.iol pills and the PIO shots - yay! However, I still have to use the 'wonderful' Crino.ne gel twice a day. (bleh) Dr. M. said he wanted to see me probably two more times, and to go ahead and set up an appointment with my regular obgyn for about 3 weeks from now. I, of course, wish I could stay with Dr. M. through everything, as I am sure most patients do, but we all know that isn't possible. My next u/s is scheduled for March 4.

This is where the 'heat attack' part of my post begins.
Needless to say, I was feeling pretty happy. That lasted about an hour and a half. I decided to go to the bathroom at work and insert my dose of Crin.one. I usually insert my morning does when I wake up, but I wanted to wait until after the u/s in case the u/s wand interfered with any absorption.

(TMI alert) So there I am, in the stall. Insert applicator, squeeze out the gel, remove the applicator. I notice a very small bit of red on the end of the applicator. I think 'Hmm... well, I guess I might have a little bit of spotting from the u/s or something.' I wasn't yet worried, but decided to jam my finger you-know-where just to check. I expected to maybe see a bit of discoloration. Instead, I see a finger covered in bright red blood. I start to shake.

Rational mind thought at the moment: "I just saw a heartbeat. There is no way I could be miscarrying right now."

Irrational mind thought at that moment, which completely overrode rational mind thought: "WHAT THE %!$%!$ BRIGHT RED? OH SH*T!! No No NO NO!"

It took me about 1.5 seconds to pull my pants back up, get back to my desk, grab my cell phone and get back out to a secluded part of the hallway and call the doctor's office. After explaining to the nurse what happened, she immediately told me to not worry - that my vag area is 'very vascular', end even more so than usual now that I'm 'p.' She said this happens a lot - that the u/s and the Crino.ne applicator could easily cause this. She asked if I had any type of pain or cramping - I didn't. I asked if I should come in if the bleeding continued and she said yes, of course, but that I should not expect any bleeding to continue.

I then spent the rest of the day trying to not go to the bathroom every 15.8 seconds to check things out. As it turns out, she was right - there hasn't been anything since.

9 comments:

jp said...

So sorry you had to see the scary blood. That heart stopping feeling is just awful.
I am glad your Butters' heart is beating well and that you got to stop your PIO!
Keep up the good stuff.

Optimistic said...

OMG - that must have been so scary! Glad everything is okay. Isn't it awesome seeing that heartbeat.... so glad things are progressing and going well

Denise said...

Your post scared the crap out of me! I'm glad everything's okay.

Rebecca said...

SCARY!!! I'm so glad that everything stopped and hopefully it stays that way!

Rebeccah said...

Scary indeed. No more of that, okay? And so very exciting that you got to see Butter's heartbeat. That's what we want more of!! : )

Ms. J said...

Stay positive, keep reminding yourself about that wonderful heartbeat. And take it extra-easy, to reassure yourself. Will say a prayer for you.

SaraS-P said...

(shudder) blood is so scary.

I hope Butters' little heart keeps beating away!

Susan said...

Hi there! I just found your blog on cyclesista and noticed we are in the same boat. Congrats on the heartbeat! Isn't that awesome? I was wishing today that we could have recorded ours so I can listen to it over and over. I'm looking forward to reading about your journey to mommyhood!

Wordgirl said...

OH...scary...

I hope all is well Carrie...thinking of you...


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