My Afternoon Surprise.

First, my heart goes out to Rebeccah and Maria. They both just received bad news. :(

I had an entry ready to go from this morning, and was just waiting for the ‘official’ word from Dr. M’s office before posting it.
The entry I had ready is no longer valid. Righty and/or Lefty decided to give me a super surprise today.

I still have not POAS. I woke up to spotting. Well, not actual spotting. (TMI alert) After peeing in a cup (for the pregnancy test) it was more of my standard jam-finger-in-hoo-ha check. At first there wasn't anything, but then there was that little bit of blood, just like every damn other month, so I dumped my cup of pee in the toilet, flushed, and cried. And yelled. And cursed. DH was already awake when I went to the bathroom and was waiting, because he knew I was going to test. I yelled "I didn't test - there's no point!" and opened the bathroom door and started my tirade, as he tried to console me. I did keep myself from punching the wall. He asked me if I wanted to take the day off from work - he said he would too (what an awesome man!) to stay with me. I said no way. I'm a contractor and if I don't go to work, I don't get paid, and I said I'll be damned if I lose any more work time and money because of this IVF cycle. We made plans to have drinks after work.

I went and had my beta at 7:30am, just so I could get the ball rolling for IVF #2. I managed to get to work without looking like I got punched in the face. I had a cup of regular coffee.

Dr. M’s office called my cell phone at 1:49pm. I was at my desk at work.

Me: "Hello."

Nurse: "Hi, how are you?"

Me: "Fine." (thinking, not fine, just tell me it's negative and what I am doing next)

Nurse: "Well, your pregnancy test was positive."

Me: "WHAT?!?? ARE YOU SERIOUS?!!??!?"

I bolt from my desk and run into the hallway, where there are no people around!

I am 9dp5dt. My beta is 54. Oh please let that be an ok number.

Oh. My. God!

I am shaking.

I did not take my crino.ne or estradiol pill this morning!

I don’t know what else to say right now. I know I still have a long way to go. I'm nervous about the beta number, even though the nurse said it was fine. Does anyone have input on the beta #?

(edit: I am adding this to clarify - I know the number is supposed double within 48-72 hours... just hoping 54 is not low. Next beta is scheduled for Feb 11.)